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[July, 1988] I Want to Believe…And I Do


Dear Diary,

I have a story to tell you.

Last night I saw a shooting star and a few minutes later I saw a…UFO!!!

It was flourecent orange and it flew in a zig-zag line then it just disappeared. I had to admit I was sort of scared.

"Don't pick me!"

"Don't pick me!"

When I was nine years old, my parents did not let me watch horror movies. They did, however, let me watch Sightings and Unsolved Mysteries and other shows featuring spooky phenomenon and somber reinactments. Little did they know that those programs would terrify me more than any hockey-mask-wearing or claw-weilding serial killer. Because I didn’t believe that a burned man in a striped sweater would kill me in my sleep, but I did believe that being abducted by aliens (and possibly experimented on) was a plausible scenario. One that remains terrifying to me in adulthood.

While that night proved to be thrilling, it also planted a seed of fear and an irrational phobia in me. When we returned to Brooklyn, I began reading more books and magazines about The Unexplained, finding myself increasingly fascinated, but also increasingly frightened. At night, when some kids might say a nightly prayer before bed, I would stare at the sky beyond beyond my window and say a prayer of my own, to any alien life flying around in their strange craft, to leave me alone. As far as I know, I have yet to be abducted (*knock on wood*).

To this day, I don’t know what I saw, but it wasn’t a plane and it wasn’t fireworks. My parents and I spent that summer at a bungalow colony with my a handful of other Russian families and a group of us witnessed the orange lights late one night. The adults exclaimed that it was a UFO and while there might have been some vodka flowing earlier that night, it wasn’t enough to induce mass hallucinations. Besides, I saw it too (years before my first taste of alcohol) and I can’t explain it, either.

Whether or not it was an alien spacecraft paying a visit, those orange lights and the shooting star that preceded them had a lot of influence on my life-long interest in cosmology and the paranormal. Whenever I am outside New York City and somewhere with a more visible night sky, I always look up, searching for something out of the ordinary…

  1. Kathy LaBelle
    August 28, 2009 at 11:20 am

    Great idea! I to share in the limited movie exposure but remember being 10 and hooked on Unsolved Mysteries! 🙂

    • damiella
      August 28, 2009 at 2:00 pm

      Those stories are so much scarier, because they are based on real testimonials! That’s one show I would love to see brought back to tv.

  2. August 28, 2009 at 1:43 pm

    Unsolved Mysteries was both amazing and scary all rolled into one. My mom still talks about how I would see people who ‘somewhat’ looked like the actors who played people, and would be so scared I once went screaming out of a JC Penny store when I was 6! Here’s to always looking up!

    • damiella
      August 28, 2009 at 2:00 pm

      Hahaha, no way! I hope she didn’t let you watch America’s Most Wanted!

  3. October 25, 2009 at 3:11 am

    Unsolved Mysteries scared the crap out of me. I can’t even hear the music without getting panicky.

    • damiella
      November 2, 2009 at 11:51 am

      I know, right? And Robert Stack always gave me the heebeejeebees.

  4. November 1, 2009 at 9:48 pm

    This entry was really well written. I think kids are sometimes more sensitive to things like this. When I was in kindergarten, I swear I saw a UFO land in our backyard and then lift back up when I was with my brother and babysitter. Who knows? It may have been an overactive imagination, but I think kids are sometimes sensitive to things that adults are not.

    • damiella
      November 2, 2009 at 11:55 am

      WOW, really? That sure beats my UFO story!

      I agree, I think kids are more sensitive to the supernatural. Part of it is being imaginative, sure, but I think another part of it is being innocent and a lot less skeptical and jaded than grown ups. Kids are experiencing so many new things that I believe they’re more open toward and willing to believe unusual things.

  5. September 2, 2016 at 12:15 am

    Unsolved Mysteries had some really scary stories on it. I remember seeing a story on it when I was a kid which was later made into the horror movie, A Haunting in Connecticut.

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