[March, 1991] Is this a Joke?
Saturday, March 2, 1991
I have some news, but before I go on, I have to backtrack and tell you what happened the day after I threw Justin The Note.
In the morning, Justin got on the bus, and he did not say one word about the note, so I wrote him another one that said: “Justin, did you get my other note? If so, do you have an answer for me?” I gave this note to Hanh to give to Justin in class.
In the afternoon, for practically the whole bus ride, Justin didn’t mention the note. Then when we were about to reach his spot, Justin took out the note and said “Is this a joke?”
I said “No” and he said “Well then O.K.” And the rest is history.
I got his phone number and we talked about going out. He said that lunch period is too little time to go out. Then he took my phone number. Nothing has happened yet, but I’m sure something will.
Something really funny happened on the bus yesterday. Luke turns to Justin and asks “Do you know who Damiella likes?”
Hanh, Linda, Justin, and me started cracking up hysterically! It was so obvious!
What should have been even more obvious, to me at least, was that Justin was a non-starter.
The fact that I had to write a follow-up note to get an answer from him should have been the first clue. The fact that he thought lunch period was not enough time to go out should have been my next clue. We got a full hour for lunch, which offered ample time to go to a diner, deli, or pizzeria. At the time I took it as a sign that he wanted to spend more time with me than we were allotted during school hours, that 60 minutes would not be enough time to begin to get to know me. Now I can look back and understand his excuse was a way to cover up his discomfort/disinterest. But back then, I didn’t let any of that register.
Instead, I accepted Justin’s reluctance as shyness and spent weeks waiting for him to call and set up a proper date with me. Every time the phone rang, I would hoped it was Justin. Every time the phone rang, it was someone else.