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[March, 1991] Let the River Run

March 21, 1991

Dear Journal,

Well, me and Justin are over before we began.

About two weeks ago I called Justin and he said he didn’t want to go out with me. I’m over him.
I was in the talent show today. I sang “let the river run” and I only hit 1 sour note. What was neat was that a lot of people were cheering for me and complimented me on my singing.

What wasn’t “neat” was that I had to spend weeks on tenterhooks and then initiate my own rejection by Justin. And I didn’t get over him as easily as I tried to make it sound in my diary. When practicing for the talent show, there was a part of me that hoped more than anything that Justin would be so moved by my singing that he’d change his mind and go out with me after all. Obviously, that didn’t happen.

And hey, at least this time it wasn’t a Debbie Gibson song.

one of the dreamers waking the nation

I was never a major Carly Simon fan, but always loved the 1988 classic* Working Girl, whose theme song was “Let the River Run.” It plays over the opening sequence as Tess McGill (Melanie Griffin in her finest role) rides the Staten Island ferry, dreaming of a better tomorrow while she begins another day as an under-appreciated secretary.  Tess takes her fate into her own hands, transforming herself into a savvy businesswoman. She’s not afraid to defy convention to achieve her dream, something I found inspiring.

Of course my way of defying convention (throwing a note out a bus window at a boy I liked) did not make my dreams of getting a boyfriend come true. Even so, I used “Let the River Run” as an anthem of hope. “Let all the dreamers wake the nation,” belted out Carly. “Blaze a trail of desire,” she commanded. I was a dreamer! I wanted to wake stuff up too! I would have to face plenty of rejection, but wouldn’t let any dumb boys tarnish my optimism. I had too many trails of desire to blaze to let a little disappointment get in my way.

* Your definition of “classic” and mine might vary.
  1. April 16, 2010 at 6:19 pm

    I think lying to your diary is standard practice. Also? I want to watch Working Girl now. And maybe wake some stuff up while I’m at it.

    • damiella
      April 16, 2010 at 6:29 pm

      Yes, especially when it comes to boys and their emotional impact.

      And Working Girl still holds up; I watch it every time I get a new job or make some sort of Tess-worthy career move. It’s so great.

      “Speech class, what d’ya need speech class for? Ya tawk foine!”

  2. sarahjane
    April 16, 2010 at 7:10 pm

    How come I didn’t know we had a talent show? Oh I know, I had no talent and would have been way too intimidated to showcase it if I had one…

    • damiella
      April 16, 2010 at 8:54 pm

      Or maybe you didn’t have a dumb crush you were trying to impress. I only remember having a talent show in 7th grade, I don’t think we had any after that.

  3. April 28, 2010 at 3:03 pm

    Found this blog via Twitter. I LOVE Working Girl and sing “Let the River Run” whenever I need a confidence boost.

  1. May 27, 2010 at 12:50 pm

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